She Carries: The Revelation

Chántelle Adanna
2 min readFeb 24, 2021

as we grow older …

so do the trees, so do the policies and fallacies of what we should and should not be.

and so i’m owning it anyways..

in this walk of life, we have the innate ability to experience life to the T. that is, if we release and let it all happen naturally. yes, this is easier said than done, and especially if you’re like me.

thinking.

overthinking.

self-sabotaging.

worrying.

so much so, that i was never aware of myself as a control freak, until i encountered pure irritation with the realization that my thoughts were/could control me.

there’s a tug in me..

a tug that lives deep inside of me, this feeling that i am carrying, as i maneuver from one phase of life to the next…

sincerely torn between: yes, i’ve finally started and have i made it yet?

sincerely torn between: yes, my parents are the only world to me and stepping into my adulthood reality and individuality.

sincerely torn between: yes i’ve accomplished so much but there’s so much more to achieve.

sincerely torn between: the balance of life and all its’ complexities.

the revelation i had today, was that it’s time to leave the nest.

and God will bless it.

the revelation is wherever and whenever he points for me to stay is where it will be more than okay.

the revelation is that, in the hypersensitive space i’m in mentally and emotionally, more things are falling into place. although it seems like it’s all falling apart and it isn’t going my way, or how i imagined it to be it’s a clear indication and reminder that i was never in control anyway..

this is what i am in the process of accepting because this time we have is temporary…there’s no time to play.

i can truly say that i’m confident in the steps i’m beginning to take.. in the moves i gradually make, and this revelation is on my name sake.

thank you God for always making a way… for always creating room for me when i do not, for always covering me when i am / feel lost.

i’m listening to all you have to say, and implementing it day by day.

written by: Chántelle Adanna

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Chántelle Adanna

hi! i am a literary artist & author based in LA. i write for women of color and use both humans +nature as my undying muse to tell true stories untold.